More About Me

My feelings surround me like a blanket
Smothering me with their weight
Unseen monsters claw at my mind
Cutting a hole through my imagined prison
Provides escape for tormentts that haunt me

They are free to go but they go naught
Like glue they stay, sinking deeper
Where is the release?
Where do I find the peace I seek?

Dropping to the floor my acid tears melt
The carpet in patterns of confusion
The glaze across my eyes turns a candle flame
Into a burning star gliding though space

Could I hitch a ride?
Is that star my ship through the universe?
I pray it comes for me
Stopping at the door of my mind.

Here it is.
It has come.
Can my mind carry me past my tears?
The flames dim to reveal steps from the star
Unfolding to my mind

One step at a time I climb
Closer and closer to reality
A reality as God and the universe see me
Happy, healthy, with the peace of mind I long for

Reaching the top, one foot in the star
I look back at the false world behind
It will and will not be missed

As I fully enter, the starship flames melt
My protective covering
Bleak, despairing thoughts vaporize to
Nothingness, warmth and peace
My Heart full of hope

We sail off exploring new universes
New worlds, new thoughts and joys
Until we are but a glimmer of light
In the distant galaxies

My eyes now open
These new feelings still within
Thought I've never left the floor
Tearful patterns of confusion once known
Now gone

This universal journey I am on
A product of my mind
Is my mind
And the disappearing starship
Merely a candle flame burning low